So we get back home to celebrate Bonnie's birthday and all is well. I didn't see her until later in the night with Noah and she didn't seem to suspect a thing. I chatted with Noah every now and then but kept all our interactions friendly.

I try to avoid lying as much as possible because I know I'm good at it. I've lost a few friends because of problems with honesty in the past and I can confidently say that I didn't lie for many years after I realized my problem. I learned that creating secrets to keep from people is not a rewarding game to play. But there I was, lying to a friend of many years, on her birthday, for a boy I had just met.

We went back to Daniels apartment. Daniel was out of town but Noah was crashing in his place so went there to chill. Everybody is drinking and having a good time but I decide to leave early. I end up with a text message from Noah asking me if I want to come back and spend the night. Because I am a fucking dumb piece of shit, I said yes. He told me to wait a little bit because apparently, Bonnie wasn't getting the hint that he didn't want her to stay over that night. She was so unwilling that Noah had to get one of our mutual friends to escort her home.

After Bonnie left, I headed to Noah. We stayed up talking all night and had sex for hours. I remember my lips aching from kissing him so much. We laid there naked, chuckling, conversing. It was about 3 am when we heard a door open.

“Did you hear that?” I asked

“Yeah...Hold on.” He responded.

Noah was under the impression that someone was breaking in. I knew exactly what was happening. Bonnie has always had trouble with boundaries, especially with boys. For her, there is no reason that she shouldn't assert herself into a guy she likes apartments for a late night sesh. He shot out of bed and covered himself with a pair of shorts. I tried to cover myself with the blanket to hide my identity. She walked into the bedroom.

“Hi” said Bonnie

“What are you doing here?” said Noah

“I don't know I just wanted to come over and hang out..... Who is that?” She replied. I stayed silent.

“You need to leave,” said Noah. She didn't leave.

“You seriously need to leave. You shouldn't have come here. Get out.” He stated firmly.

After an awkward silence, Bonnie gathered her self and walked out. I was mortified. I couldn't even imagine what she must have been feeling. AND ON HER BIRTHDAY. I hate myself just as much as you guys do reading this don't worry. The next day was even worse. Noah was screamed at and ripped a new one by her. It took me several hours of explaining and apologizing to get Bonnie to forgive me for a moment. Its been about 10 months since then and only last week did I feel like our relationship had really been back to normal.

If only I had thought about how he had talked to Bonnie so rudely and what that might say about his character. If I had cut him off when I saw his red flags, then I wouldn't be in the position that I am in now.

But how could I? He was the most attractive boy I have ever been with! And we like the same things! And he's so nice to me! I can't ditch him, were business partners! Fuck you past Lola, stop screwing me over.

Noah left to go home. He asked if we could keep in touch. I said yes.